May 30, 2014

one year

My baby will be one year old in just a few days. There are some things I would like her to know about our first year together. The year flew by unlike any other in the past. It was also one of the hardest years I've been through in ways that I never could have imagined. There have been times I've felt so exhausted, cooped up, flabby, weak, irritable and just not myself. Mostly I've just felt so much love, happiness and wonder. I'm truly excited to get up every morning, no matter what time it is, just to get to see your little face and hold you close to me.

It's difficult to find the right words and sentences to articulate just what it feels like to be a mother and love someone so fiercely. I would take a bullet, wrestle a bear, jump out of a plane, run into a forest fire and do anything, really, to keep you safe with me. I never imagined just how truly beautiful you would be. Your personality is really starting to develop and show through more and more each and every day. You're not just a little beauty you're also very clever, silly, affectionate, fun-loving, sweet, social and relaxed. You're the healthiest baby I've known. You haven't been sick once, not even a runny nose or cough, nothing. You sleep well, enjoy eating healthy foods and love to laugh. I think that's a big part of what makes you such a strong and healthy baby.

The sound of your laugh, baby talk and sweet little whispers are the best sounds that I've ever heard. The thought that you will sometimes continuously fake laugh just to get us to laugh with you kills me. I adore watching you try to snap those tiny fingers and wave at people, dogs and your stuffed animals. I'm so thankful for you. We wanted you so much. For a while we weren't sure we would ever get to have a baby. I think that's made us appreciate the time we have with you even more. The three days of labor and five hours of pushing were beyond worth it. You're my favorite person.

You have taught me so much this year. I've learned that I am capable of so much more than I ever knew. I really don't need much at all to make me perfectly content. I would do just fine living in a log cabin in the middle of nowhere as long as you and Ryan were there. Ryan and I work very well together under pressure, (for the most part). Happy almost birthday. I don't know what exactly brought you to us, but thanks for coming into our lives. Here's to many more wonderful years together full of love and learning. I love you so much baby!

May 11, 2014

my first mother's day

I have to admit I was a little disappointed when I found out my husband wouldn't be able to spend my first Mother's Day with me. He had to work since he had already taken a few days off to speak at a conference. Luckily, we ended up spending so much more time together than usual because of that time off. It really ended up feeling like the whole weekend was Mother's Day. 

We went out to eat as a family a few times, which is an extremely rare occasion for us. We even got to eat outside since the weather was insanely beautiful! Ruby loved it and was so well behaved. She tried all sorts of new foods including; burrata at Spacca Napoli, ice cream at Jeni's, and various Mexican food at El Tapatio. I ate so much delicious food and enjoyed a few drinks, too. We took some long walks and late afternoon naps. We played in the park and went on a little trip to see the Baha'i Temple. 

Today (Mother's Day) I was able to sneak off, for a bit, by myself before my husband went to work. I saw Unbound, the Frida Kahlo exhibit, and so much more at the MCA. I found a little blank puzzle for Ruby to draw on at the gift shop. I was even able to squeeze in a little bit of shopping on Michigan Avenue before I had to head back home to take care of Ruby. It ended up being a really great and memorable first Mother's Day after all.